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yes I'm okay and I'm sorry it took me so
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long to tell you guys that because of
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everything that happened I was actually
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put into a psych ward for over two weeks
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which I'll talk about later in the video
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but for those of you who don't know a
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few weeks ago I made a video where it
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appeared as though I was gonna harm
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myself now the explanation of why I made
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that video is much more complicated than
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you probably think so I would really
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appreciate it if you watch this entire
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video so a few days prior to making that
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video I engaged in the spiritual
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ceremony at where I took this
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mind-altering substance known as
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ayahuasca this is a very powerful
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substance and it caused me to act much
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differently than I normally would I was
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not myself for a while after I took it
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it caused me to think and act very
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differently now at the beginning of that
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video I did say that I was active and
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that was true I seriously meant that in
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the moment now that doesn't mean that I
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was okay or that I was in my right mind
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but I was acting and I'll explain why
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now what I'm about to say seemed logical
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at the time because I was not in my
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right mind but looking back on it it
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does not now but I'll let you guys know
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where my mind was at so over the past
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couple years I've been trying to become
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an actor in Los Angeles and I've never
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really talked about this but to be
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honest that's the main reason why I
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moved out there in the first place so I
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had an agent and I was doing auditions
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pretty frequently the biggest job I got
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is actually airing right now on YouTube
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it's this Bachelorette satire series and
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although that was cool my acting career
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just didn't live up to my expectations I
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just didn't get any of the big jobs that
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I wanted and I gave up I plan on moving
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back to Austin on the 15th of May I was
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planning on moving into this influencer
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house I had a flight booked
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I was completely prepared to leave but
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in that period of time where I was not
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myself I had this crazy idea I would
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make some acting reels that were so
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dramatic and so controversial that it
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would grab the attention of producers
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and this would be my one final shot at
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becoming an actor in Los Angeles I just
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really did not want to have regret in
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the moment I feel like I was gonna
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regret not trying harder so there's
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actually more acting girls that I filmed
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that day that I haven't released and
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they're not sad like the first one now
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this was a very spontaneous idea
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obviously it wasn't thought out very
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well and at the time I
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tunnel vision the only thing I could
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think about was my dreams and I didn't
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think about the potential consequences
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that these types of videos could have
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and for the video that I did release I
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want to sincerely apologize
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it was extremely insensitive to put out
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and I caused a lot of stress for a lot
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of people it's safe to say that I won't
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be taking that type of mind-altering
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substance ever again but I just want to
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let you guys know that I was never going
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to harm myself so let me tell you what
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happened after that video was posted
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after that video I went to Venice Beach
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and continued making these acting URLs
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in the form of a vlog now those next
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acting roles are different in the sense
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that they might be kind of controversial
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but they could cause absolutely no harm
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whatsoever
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let you guys know that I wasn't and I'm
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still not at all a danger to myself and
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to try and alleviate some of the stress
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I may have caused I'll actually be
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releasing these acting roles in the next
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few days on my vlog channel now as I was
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making that vlog I was arrested many
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people called the cops after that video
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was made my friends were rightfully
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worried about me and they actually led
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the cops right to where I was in Venice
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then because I was deemed a danger to
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myself I was taken to UCLA's hospital
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and put in a psych ward for over two
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weeks the doctors diagnosed me with
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drug-induced psychosis versus bipolar
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disorder which basically means I had or
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have one of these conditions but they
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are not sure which so while I was there
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I was put on medication
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and now the doctors and I can
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confidently tell you that I am back in
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my right mind and I am feeling myself so
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while this all seems like a very
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negative situation I want to do my best
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to turn it into a positive and to fix
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some of the damage that have caused I
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would like to believe that the goodbye
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video actually has a greater purpose and
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will have an extremely positive effect
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in the long run and I'll tell you why
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even though I've obviously had my
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struggles recently the past few weeks
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have been some of the most
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self-improvement focused weeks of my
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entire life I've had some extremely
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eye-opening spiritual experiences that
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have changed my life for the better I
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can honestly say that I'm completely
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free from the illusion of death and that
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I've been able to fill in some of the
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gaps between science and religion
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that I've had in my head I've even been
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able to completely rid myself of
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insecurities and social anxiety that
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used to haunt me just months ago I've
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also discovered some simple yet vastly
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overlooked ease longevity and I've
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radically improved my health over the
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past few weeks my resting heart rate has
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gone from 70 to 50 in just a matter of
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weeks and for the first time in my
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entire life I can honestly say that I
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truly feel fulfilled and happy even
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though my life situation has been great
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for a while I am just now finding true
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and a peace and happiness
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after about three years of spiritual
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practice I found something so powerful
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that the only thing in life that matters
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to me right now is sharing it with you I
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want you guys to experience and learn
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the things that I have because they are
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so incredible so if you're wondering
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that's why I posted this video on this
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channel I'm turning this channel into a
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spiritual and self-improvement channel
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and at this moment this is far more
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important than my main channel I will
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start making videos again sometime but
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for right now this is what I'm focusing
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on so while I was in a psych ward I had
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a lot of free time and I use that time
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to plan out a nine video series that's
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meant to change people's lives for the
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better this is the first video over the
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next eight days I'll be releasing eight
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more videos one of those
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being the unreleased and acting reels
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every video will be released at 10 a.m.
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Eastern 7:00 a.m. Pacific the next few
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videos start out pretty surface level
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but then they gradually get deeper and
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deeper in fact at the end of this series
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whether you agree with my thoughts and
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ideas or not I can say with 100%
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certainty that your mind would be
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completely blown so make sure you guys
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subscribe see you there tomorrow
